it is fluid, like the ocean.
Sometimes the water is calm with sparkling diamond flex riding the surface.
Sometimes the water laps rhythmically on to the shore.
Sometimes the water waves gently, lifting hilly swells that nervously excite.
Sometimes the waves move quickly, rocking white caps to the surface.
Sometimes the waves push you around until you fear you'll lose control.
Sometimes the waves overwhelm and warn you not to swim in the ocean today.
Sometimes it is safest to avoid torrential beating forces of nature.
Sometimes it is a hurricane.
All the while it is the same ancient water.
Overwhelming one day,
calm the next,
wavy and mild to hurricane overnight.
It is not linear, it is fluid.
We learn to swim as best we can.
We find ways to enter the ocean and need to learn when to play safe and stay on shore.
It's not always predictable which adds to the confusion of trying to live in a world that praises predictability.
We take swimming lessons but the instructor never truly understands the layers of our complexities. One day we learn to tread water enough to survive the choppy sea and do the best we can not to drown.
Mental health care is not linear, it is fluid.
And it's okay to sit on the shore, dive in, tread water, hibernate, if that's what it takes not to drown.
No one sees that all we are trying to do everyday is not to drown.